i need to balance myself, i need to cope with situations like this both mentally, emotionally, and physically. this is the point in my life where things change, transition happens, people leave from my world. special people, that mean the most to me.. everyone goes through this right ..? nope. just me. nobody knows how i feel or who i am until they've been through what i've been through. so i recently just had an huge argument with my older brother, yessss the closet big brother i have in this whole family of six. well basically.. im not considered his sister anymore and that he doesn't care about me, doesn't wanna talk to me, dosen't want anything to do with me.. kind of like how my bestfriends and parents abandon me. now, i feeel like i truly have no one to run to to be truly happy.. it feels really lonely. i dont have anyone anymore. i've decided to not go home, or you can say "runaway", i dont know how long, but i sure dont want to be in that house anymore. im staying at my boyfriends right now, but only for a couple of days.. then i dont know where im heading next. im in this myself now.

common world, hit me with your best shot. i'd rather die then feel lonely.

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