♥ - i will not break, EVER.

i wanna escape.

Thursday, February 11, 2010 @ 9:22 PM

I believe one of the toughest situations you can be ever faced with is deciding whether you should just move on or hold on a little tighter. Move on, and maybe you'll lose a chance at the best thing that could have ever happened, or hold on and have the possibility of your heart being broken.

no matter what happens , im going to take it. if im not happy, im going to fake it. if you got my trust, dont lose it, and if you got my love, dont abuse it. why am i even doing this ? in the end i know imma get hurt, but why am i doing this to myself ? youre the one that makes me smile and hopefully those smiles wont become tears. im so scared but yet i know ill regret if i dont try. hopefully things wont end up how they did before.

it's a shame that what we had faded so fast. & it's too bad the moments we had didn't last as long as i wanted it to. cause really, things can't go back to the way they used to be, and all i wanted was to have that reassurance that i'd have you there for me. it sucks, i honestly thought we had potential but now that i see it, you were never an essential. when I had rough days, you weren't there for me. not only physically, nor emotionally, but in so many ways. i told you about my situations, you replied back by saying "dont be sad" which brought me to more frustration because i need more advice than that to make me feel better. all in all, i'm starting to see the real you; come to think of it, you should really consider fixing yourself up, boo. i wanted you.. but when it comes down to it, i dont want someone that wont want me back, im not gonna need someone that wont need me back, i need someone that feels the same way that i do. you made an impact on my life in such a huge way. how did this happen to me? i fall out so fast in such a short period of time. from now on, i aint gonna be looking at you, i'm gonna be looking passed you.