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I WILL NOT BREAK, EVER.
realize that life is given to you once. grasp that shit.
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go on boy .. i'll be fine ..
Monday, February 22, 2010 @ 5:22 PM
SHE THINKS ABOUT YOU NONSTOP AND YOU'RE ALL SHE TALKS ABOUT. WHEN SHE TALKS TO YOU SHE ALWAYS HAS THAT GOOFY SMILE AND SHE TRULY LOOKS HAPPY. WITH ONE HUG, YOU MAKE HER MELT AND YOU ALWAYS LEAVE HER WITH BUTTERFLIES. BUT AT THE SAME TIME, WHEN SHE'S UPSET IT'S USUALLY BECAUSE OF YOU, BUT SHE REFUSES TO SEE ANY BAD IN YOU. AND NO MATTER HOW MANY PEOPLE TRY AND TELL HER DIFFERENT, SHE BELIEVES YOU'RE PERFECT FOR HER AND WORTH EVERY SECOND OF THE WAIT. BUT SHES TOO SCARED TO TELL YOU ANY OF THIS BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T WANT TO SCREW ANYTHING UP AND DOESN'T WANT TO END UP HURT.
but now ...
GO AHEAD. 'CAUSE I’M DONE WITH CHASING AND CARING FOR PEOPLE WHO NEVER HAD INTEREST IN ME. NOTHING LASTS AND PEOPLE CHANGE. I’VE LEARNED LOVE IS HARD AND LIFE IS STRANGE.
okaaay okaays , im currently at a friends house using the computer because i dont have one at home anymore. so from now on, my life is a on going same shit routine, school then straight home. i guess this was the life i chose. no family or friends to really talk to, espcially now that my computer is gone, im really lonely. it shatters my heart to pieces to know that we’re no longer intertwined like before; you used to be one of those boys i could trust with my life. we were the greatest of friends, i relied on you and I guess I could say you relied on me too. It hurts to know that we no longer connect like we used to, words are no longer exchanged… What hurts me even more is that those occasional conversations to check up on each other no longer exist, our friendship no longer exists.. but no matter what, I’ll love you, and whenever you need me, I’ll always be here. kinda wish i never fell in love with you, because now im stuck, between these four walls. and now that you're gone, it feels like the walls are crashing in on me.. baby its killing me.. the fact that your gone, its killing me.. i tried to play it cool in school today, shit, how am i suppose to last my WHOLE high school life without you seeing you everyday.. i wish i never fell as hard as i did, because maybe now it wouldnt hurt as much.. but i gotta manage to stay strong right? afterall, time will only tell. time is all i need..